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August 10th, 2009
08:51 pm - Letting Go
Letting Go
I learned a valuable lesson recently . Only problem is I think I learned it at the expense of a great friend. That lesson is; I can not make any one do what I think is right.
If some how the person reads this, or someone reads this and knows who it is, just know that I am not bashing, or belittling. I truly understand the issues as to why it happened. I honestly feel no type of animosity toward the person. I am writing this as my sort of releasing.
Also if you do know who it is I ask for you not to mention their name in the comments.
The person in question was a really good friend. I would do almost anything for this person, and she was one of the few people I was totally open with. This person was going through some problems, and during that period they said that they had a desire to do certain things that they felt they had no opportunity to do. These things in question were things I needed for a project, and the person was talented at them.
When I asked them, initially they were very excited about the opportunity. When it came to execution they had some issues that I was willing to work around, just because I thought it would be a benefit to them. At first it worked out.
Then one day they exhibited some behavior that kind of screwed a lot of things up, not just for my project, but for other things in my life. I tried to as nicely as I could explain to them why it was bad, and I asked them to do something for future reference that would keep this from happening again.
That’s when they blew up at me. They claimed I forced them into working on the project, and how every thing was my fault because I wouldn‘t take no for an answer. Which really hurt me for few reasons.
1. I offered because they had a desire to do things like this, and they wanted to help me out.
2. I feel like I do take no for an answer most of the time. Specially with this friend. There were a few things they have said no to me about, and I respected it even if I didn’t agree.
3. They never said no. which they then turned around and said that the situation forced them into it. They basically said they were afraid to say no. Which hurt because I felt we were so close, and they had said no to things that it wouldn’t actually be as bad as they said it was.
The person only voiced concerns about limitations and disabilities. Which were vary real, but I was willing to work around them. I was willing to do so much that it probably didn’t make sense. I was willing to do these things not just to make my project work, but more importantly(in my mind) to make an opportunity for my friend who I honestly believe wanted it.
Making them happy was an obsession of mine. I was willing to put my self through hell, just so that my friend could have what I thought they desired. I was willing to do all these things and all I wanted is some assurance that they would come through. It seemed as though they didn’t fully understand this. The situation really messed with my mind..
We had another conversation, and I got my “no” and I respected it for the most part.
My mind started to wander and me still hoping to make this a positive experience, I gave them advice about stuff that worried me. They poured out their heart to me, and I wrote a lousy response on facebook mobile(never write anything important solely with your thumbs). Which they rightfully got up set about, and now we are not talking anymore.
My post comes down to this. There are different types of people. Some look past their issues, and become successful, and others that wont. I can not be more obsessed about helping someone conquer their problems to become successful more than what they are willing to strive for them selves.
And there are lots of layers to this story that I am not thinking of , or am purposely leaving out. So, this post is part of a bunch of issues, fears, and other stuff we are both going through.
I still really care about them, and I hope we can be close friends again under a healthier set of circumstances. I just needed to let go of my obsession.
Now that I have I feel free... and free is what I need right now.
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June 3rd, 2009
May 15th, 2009
01:43 pm - Play this mr.Martin
So, I this is going to be a quick post, because I am at school and a class should be coming any min. I am just posting to tell everyone my distaste for the song Stanky Leg, and the fact every kid wants me to play it during class.
That is all.
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April 27th, 2009
12:33 pm - Im updating, what?
Im updating, what?
I've had an AMAZING month. I'm loving my live right now, and I haven't fealt this good since I was 17.
I'm back, kinda. I'm mostley writing to say, I'm going to be writing more.
That includes Valley 24.
It's about to go down :-D
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January 27th, 2009
09:17 pm - wrestling lessons
who wants to be my tag teem partner? Better yet, who wants to put a considerable amount of money down on wrestling lessons? The classes are $2000 if I went alone or $2100 if I go with a friend. I figure if I were to go with a friend we would split the cost(1050 a person). I would want to do it during the summer if we were to do it... Anyone down?
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January 22nd, 2009
10:36 pm
Closing gitmo and getting rid of water boarding
Obama is the man.
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January 12th, 2009
08:20 am - vindy.com?
Remind me to never look at the comment section of the vindicator website ever again.
Man, that is depressing. :-(
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December 28th, 2008
10:25 pm - Dont be a Marc Dann
My New Years Resolution is not like other peoples. Many people want to exercise more, eat healthier, and be a better person. I one the other side want to do something different. I want to take Youngstown area people's names and make them slang words. I want this tri-county slang to spread across the nation, and hopefully make it into a rap song by E-40, or Jim Jones. The first word I want to introduce to you is "Marc Dann"
Marc Dann: Any person that lives in or near your town, that you wish didn't
Exsample: Maurice Clarett is such a Marc Dann.
Inspiration: I was inspired to make this word after finding out Marc Dann Lives 3 blocks away from my house :-(
So, go out and start using this word. You know you want to.
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November 20th, 2008
11:18 am
Man I really need to get out of college.
I just laughed at a person who said "I need to feel pain to make sure that I am still alive."
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November 11th, 2008
07:44 pm - SO, OBamA WoN
Now that Obama has taken the nomination, there has been a huge catastrophe. No, I am not talking about Russia(Palin will take care of that). The issue is that with the nation being put into a left leaning position, people on the right have nothing to do. There's nothing to rally around, nothing to be excited over. Being a conservative is just as cool as listening to Black Eye'd Peas, Korn, or Nickleback, which means conservatives probably do not have many friends. There are still somethings you'll be able to do even though you are a conservative.
You can buy an assault rifle.
Nothing is more American than being able to buy a weapon that was featured on the last Resident evil game. I know that with the rising confidence in black people, and the crossing of the border of Mexicans, that a race war is certain. Your #1 concern in this race war, is to protect your home. There is no better way to protect your home than to buy a weapon that can blow a 12" hole in a furnished wall.
You can forward Obama is the Anti Christ E-mails.
Everything about Obama screams he is the Anti Christ. He's an eloquent speaker, people like him, and he's from Hawaii which is kinda like being from the middle east. You know God has a crazy sense of humor. The first black person he lets be president, ends up being the worst person in the world. I mean, he does believe Jesus is God, which is sorta un-Antichrist like, but don't let that stop you from sending E-mail.
You can start a facebook group that demands that Obama be Impeached.
Even though Obama has not stepped foot in the office you can order him to hit the road. There are a few things you need to have in order to make this a good group. You need to refer to Obama by his middle name. His middle name is a hot topic no one really knows about. I mean did you know that Obama's Middle name was the last name of a leader of a Country that we invaded under false pretenses? You need to talk about the fact that Obama wants end capitalism. The rich work hard for all of their money, even the money they have stolen. You can not tax the rich people cause then they wont become richer, and that's bad because it spreads the wealth around, cause we're all Joe The Plumber. You also need to talk about Bill Ayers. He is another hot button topic that we have not heard enough about. Did you know that Obama did stuff with a college professor that, 40+ years ago, planted bombs then warned the people so they could disarm/ evacuate safely? You must end your tirade by asking who is the real Obama?
You see, even though the country does not want conservatives in politics, the country needs them. The country will come crawling back for them in two years. Until that time you have lots of stuff to keep busy.
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November 5th, 2008
12:41 pm
Sir Isaac Newton? Is he serious?
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October 22nd, 2008
09:36 pm - I like hiphop no Homo
When I was a kid my favorite piece of clothing was a red, and black Hairy Potter shirt. On the shirt was Hairy Potter and his friends and in the background was Dumbledore. He made me feel really awkward cause it didn’t seem like he belonged on the shirt. A few years later I found out that Dumbledore was gay. In the near future, am going to buy a shirt, that reads “I am Hiphop”, and I’m thinking just like Dumbledore, I am going to find out that Hiphop is gay. It all started when I was about 12, and I started listening to the lyrics to rap songs. I started to notice that there were a lot of songs that mentioned men’s penises. It was really strange. It seemed the more manly someone was the more they wanted to talk about their man meat. Which is cool, but sometimes they would bring up the size of their shlong, in songs about killing people. Like I wanted to believe that these guys were straight, but with lyric like “Biggie Smalls is the wickedest ***** say I'm pussy I dare you to stick your dick in this,” I had to do a double take. It was a very confusing time for me. Then earlier this year I went to an after party for a Hiphop concert. At this party there was music, guys and girls. The really odd thing is that all of the guys were dancing with guy, and all of the girls were dancing with girls. The people stayed dancing with people of the same sex, matter what was happening, even If the DJ played a slow song, a song about women, or even a song about dancing with women. It was almost surreal seeing this. Then last weekend I went to Hiphop for Hiphop heads, and I saw a man walking with a pink bag that resembled a lewy vaton bag. I soon found out that it was not a “purse,” but a “duffle bag.” They have become fairly popular in Hiphop. The only thing is that they are basically purses. I mean look at them;     Will Hiphop become gay? I do not know, but it’s seems that way. What happens if hiphop becomes gay? Will there be more Hiphop musicals, better tastes in clothes, or hot women that feel so comfortable around Hiphop that they let Hiphop grab their boobs? Maybe, Nas was wrong. Hiphop is not dead, it’s just is coming out of the closet. Dr.Goo
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October 10th, 2008
01:14 pm
the best comment on valley 24
" By salaciousOne ( anonymous ) on October 10, 2008 at 11:36 a.m.
collaborates within my music you ass. you know what you pompous ignorant ass you can kiss my ass then, i am done with your holier than thou attitude."
It would be so much better if he used the word "ass" one more time.
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October 8th, 2008
08:23 pm
Who's ready for another mix tape? I don't care who is. Just listen to it Suckas... Boomp3.com Dr.Goo
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October 1st, 2008
09:35 am - Dear McCain I know how to vote
Who's the wise guy that gave the McCain campaign my email address?
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12:41 am
Boomp3.com
Rofl, I was bored
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September 30th, 2008
09:48 pm - Is Sarah Palin trying?
So, I'm not sure I can ever make fun of McCain's Vice president again.
Sarah Palin is beyond making fun of.
She can't even tell a straight answer about the newspaper she reads.
http://thinkprogress.org/2008/09/30/palins-news/
What she, her self ,reads... Do you understand the level of crazy that is????
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September 27th, 2008
04:03 pm
Before Justin Timberlake partnered up with Timbaland, there was a huge problem. The problem; sexy had left the building. Where did sexy go, I do not know. What I do know is the team of Timbaland and Timberlake took sexy and brought it back, and now sexy is here for all of us to enjoy. Just like sexy left, McCain's edge in the polls is leaving. So, I have gone on the quest to bring John McCain back. There are a few ways I plan to do this.
First I propose that John McCain make the rest world seem frightening to white people, through professional wrestling. McCain should start using ethnic wrestlers in his rallies. My vision of how he should implement the wrestlers is like this;
:: Scene a John McCain Rally ::
"Victory in Iraq means victory in Afghanistan, I don't know why we don't just call it Iraqistan?"
:::Starts breaking things:::
"rawr"
"what are you doing?"
:::breaks more things:::
"I'm a terrorist. Can't you tell by my dark skin?"
"where are you from?"
:::breaks more things:::
"New Yo... err...Iraqistan"
"lets have a staring contest"
And then then the wrestler would blink and fall of the face of the earth. In which McCain would say "I did not blink then, and I will not blink in the eyes of other brown skinned terrorists!" Tell me that's not effective. I bet there are white people reading this screaming U.S.A. U.S.A.
The next thing to do is give Sarah Palin a job. It is clear that she's not ready to do interviews. It is also clear she is basically doing nothing in between ducking interviews and looking important. I say, the job Americans want to see her do is cook. I'm sure most republicans are not opposed to a woman in the kitchen. She could have her own show, where she teaches us how to make Maverick Moon Pies, a Bacon Bridge to Nowhere, and first dude doughnuts. We would also learn how to cut the pork, by charging victims of rape for their rape kits.... errr or something like that.
In order for McCain to compete he needs a rap song. Ludacris, Jay-z, Nas, Crooked I, and Young Jeazzy have all made pro-Obama songs. The problem is that Obama has taken most of the good national recording artists, but that will not stop me from finding a suitable Mc for McCain. Instead of taking national rout I would rather use a local rapper. That local rapper is S-Pomp. Think of how much win that is made of. The power of the Mavrick being channeled by S(Killer instinct the Killer instinct Killer instinct the Killer instinct Killer instinct the Killer instinct) Pomp. This would be the power move of the century!1
Yes, John McCain is down 10 points in some areas, but all of that will change. Want to know why it will change? It's because:
I'm bringing McCain back/
I am going to do it before his base takes a nap/(get it? they're old)
Rich people like him cause they wont pay tax/ (get it? tax cuts for the rich)
I'll talk about Palin cause men she can attract/ (get it? she's a vpilf)
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September 15th, 2008
06:14 pm - my power is still out.
So we might not have any power until Thursday. Guess who's hanging out at ysu more often
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02:30 pm - I'm so cool I have my own rumors
I heard a rumor that I asked Sarah Sepanek(sp?) out on a date.
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